{"id":99099,"created_at":"2019-09-20 10:12:14","updated_at":"2021-04-21 01:02:40","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2019-09-20 10:12:14","original_id":null,"artist_id":7185,"title":"Heartbeat","slug":"heartbeat-5","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"local","source":"file","lyrics":"[Intro]\r\nHeartbeat\r\nI feel\r\nIn these streets \r\nA king\r\nGoing all out\r\nTryna make it feel \r\nTryna make a deal\r\nTryna to get some sleep\r\nIt cuts deep\r\nI know\r\n\r\n[Verse 1]\r\nI knew this kid\r\nHe was kinda sad\r\nSee he grew up a loner\r\nTried hard to not be a stoner \r\nBut the herb make sense\r\nSense he couldn't make out when he was sober\r\nSo he medicated\r\nTo feel something\r\nTo walk in a room and be noticed by someone\r\nBy anyone really\r\nGrew up tough really\r\nFought it off really\r\nBut the thoughts got to him\r\nSuicidal for a while\r\nOn the edge of his sanity\r\nLost his grip on mentality\r\nBeen holding so much hurt inside\r\nNow it was leaking from the sides\r\nBoiling up from inside\r\nAnd all the memories came like floods\r\n\r\n[Verse 2]\r\nHow his dad used to beat up his mom\r\nHow he was molested by someone he trusted\r\nHow his family threw him aside \r\nWhen daddy went too far \r\nand hit mom too hard\r\nAnd she never woke up\r\nAnd they never spoke about it\r\nWhen daddy was drunk \r\nEverything mommy got before \r\nWould fall on him\r\nHe used to beat on him\r\nHe used to put the blame on him\r\nTook a bottle to the head this time\r\nWoke up bleeding on the floor \r\nDaddy passed out drunk on him\r\nIts hard to talk about it\r\nIt breaks my heart talking about it\r\nBut it killed him in the end\r\nThey knew all about it \r\nAnd did nothing about it\r\nWhat am I living for?\r\nHe would ask\r\n\r\n[Bridge]\r\nWhat am I living for\r\nWhen my heart knows nothing but pain\r\nWhat am I living for\r\nWhen my heart never knew love \r\nWhat am I living for\r\nWhen my heart knows no trust\r\nwhat am I living for\r\n\r\n[Verse 3]\r\nWhat am I breathing for\r\nNo one misses me\r\nNo one checks on me\r\nNo one cares for me\r\nEven my own dad hurts me\r\nBeats me\r\nTreats me no better than trash\r\nWhat am I leaving for\r\n\r\n[Outro]\r\nGod this one soul so much strength in his life\r\nHe held on till the end\r\nTook his own life in the end\r\nHis life got no better\r\nIt was like he was made to suffer\r\nWe last saw him smile when mommy was alive\r\nMommy picked him up after class that was \r\nGrade 3\r\nThat was 12 years ago\r\n2 years ago we lost him\r\nI still think about it all","download_count":2294,"play_count":3,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":2,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-21","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5d8\/488\/9e2\/thumb_290199_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":"","tags":[]}