{"id":300178,"created_at":"2023-10-02 21:41:53","updated_at":"2024-05-09 11:47:07","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2023-10-02 21:41:53","original_id":null,"artist_id":146966,"title":"Feeling ft. Thandeka","slug":"feeling-ft-thandeka","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"Feeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts\r\nFeeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts\r\n\r\nI must admit my parents tried too\r\nThey took me to a private school\r\nUniform and nice shoes\r\nAnd gave me extra lunch money to buy food\r\nBut there wasn't much studying\r\nJust rather acting the the fool\r\nTryna score honies\r\nCause we thought we looked cool\r\nI was that kid with an above average I.Q\r\nNow I'm sitting here regretting\r\nShould've done better in high school\r\nNo site of brighter day in the midst of gloom\r\nAnd the sun's showing no signs of coming out soon\r\nWhen you said when days are dark\r\nFriends are few, you were right\r\nI thought they wouldn't mind\r\nWhen I need a friend to confide\r\nInstead of helping out\r\nThey're making fun of you online\r\nBut God, only you know why\r\nTryna silence my anxieties\r\nI don't think I'll survive\r\nThey thought I was alright\r\nI cried every other night\r\nMama pray upon my life\r\nI'm contemplating suicide\r\n\r\nFeeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts\r\nFeeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts\r\n\r\nI've been symptomatic from\r\nHypomanic episodes\r\nI was high on mandrax when I wrote\r\nNot such a happy note\r\nThat everything you need to know\r\nI left it in the envelope\r\nBut check it on a broad scope\r\nDepression's not a joke\r\nOne, too many times I got my heart broke\r\nToo many lost loved ones left a gaping hole\r\nI've lost all control\r\nOf my mind, body and soul\r\nReceived God's call\r\nNever heard a word the Lord spoke\r\nI'm out here all alone\r\nCan't find my way home\r\nCause I'm looking for oasis in deserts of lost hope\r\nAll my goals and dreams were not enough to draw strength\r\nReeking alcohol smell\r\nAnd stale cigarette breath\r\nI'm in a deep state of ill mental health\r\nI'm so scared to face my fears but not death\r\nBut I admitted to myself\r\nThat I needed to get help\r\nA journey of a thousand miles begin with one step (Yo)\r\n\r\nFeeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts\r\nFeeling...\r\nNothing but a feeling\r\nNo one gets dealt\r\nThe same hand of cards\r\nIt's how you play your hand that counts","download_count":26,"play_count":1,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2024-05-09","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/651\/b1c\/b0d\/thumb_979573_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}