{"id":279431,"created_at":"2022-11-03 23:48:23","updated_at":"2024-04-26 06:32:30","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2022-11-03 23:48:23","original_id":null,"artist_id":64799,"title":"Thought$ Free$tyle","slug":"thought-freetyle","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"[First Verse]\r\nI know\r\nI can't be emotional\r\nI can't help it with the pressure \r\nPressing down on me\r\n\r\nI can't take it, it's about time I break\r\nI can't shed a tear maybe because of toxic masculinity\r\n\r\nI can feel my being slippin' in\r\nTo depression coz I care too much\r\nAnd My thoughts are tearing reality apart\r\nEvery lyric that I write is pulling me away\r\nI'm conflicted by emotions all inside of me\r\n\r\nAnd the anxiety, they say it's nothing serious\r\nAnd my thoughts are turning all their backs on me\r\nConstantly, and they find somebody else to please \r\nIn exchange of smiles on other peoples' faces\r\nWhen I'm alone with my thoughts I'm the one to blame\r\nIn return All they do is try to put me down\r\nThose are my thoughts and I don't know how to shut em up\r\n\r\n[2nd Verse]\r\nMaybe I need therapy\r\nI've been going through a lot lately \r\nBut its not new to me \r\nSo I brushed it off, I didn't deal with it\r\nNow it's haunting me \r\nAnd its back with past demons \r\n\r\nI've been smiling pretending everything is okay\r\nShowing my teeth, So that I don't be labeled weak\r\nI see my enemies everytime I go sleep\r\nI cannot let them win, so I go down on my knees\r\n\r\nPrayer changes things, I pray changes me\r\nTo change to make the change that God sees in me\r\nTo see is to believe unless you got faith\r\nCoz the change that I'm seeking, it starts within\r\nDon't need to be a spiritual being to see the change\r\n\r\nMy God is the God of grace \r\nTake a look at me\r\nDon't need to take my word for it\r\nJust look at me\r\nLook into my life and tell me that my life is easy","download_count":67,"play_count":4,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2024-04-26","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/636\/434\/549\/thumb_900699_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}