{"id":26997,"created_at":"2018-07-13 00:48:08","updated_at":"2021-04-23 07:53:53","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2018-07-13 00:48:08","original_id":null,"artist_id":19790,"title":"Control Me","slug":"control-me","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"(Hook)\r\nMy mom was taken now I'm feeling lonely\r\nNow there's no one to hold me when I'm falling\r\nI'm sorry I answered when the demons called me\r\nI never thought they would control me\r\n(X2)\r\n(Verse 1)\r\nI'm feeling sick Doc, I wanna take another pill\r\nDaily and I wake up and conceal\r\nBut everytime they talk to me, they make me wanna kill 'em\r\nTake my daddy's gun, waste 'em and refill\r\nWait, but he was killed for an eighty dollar bill\r\nShit, fuck am I talking 'bout now?\r\nAlways let my mind walk around clouds\r\nEverything seems wrong lately and I feel like I'm losing it\r\nAll these voices are abusing me\r\nConversations are confusing, it's kinda crazy\r\nThis is what I want, what I need, but usually\r\nI've been thinking 'bout \"Is it relly good for me? It couldn't be\"\r\nYou don't know what they do to me\r\nI look at you and I really wanna tell you that I need you\r\nbut they tell me that you don't need me\r\nWhat do I gotta do to leave?\r\nShould I tell you?\r\nDo you wanna hear the hell truth?\r\nIf I told this, well would you believe?\r\nI try to pray, but they cut me off\r\nEveryday tell me \"Stop acting foolish please\"\r\nI find love but they say it's too good to be true\r\nScars, I need help, but you don't see\r\nIf I said never leave, would you always be glued to me?\r\nSo go ahead and do your shit\r\nI'll just carry on, look at you brutally\r\nI don't care, you can call me insane and everything\r\nBut I beg you please, don't blame me when I swing\r\nThrow you straight into the lake, you better swim\r\nCut your throat, lick the blade, it's not a dream\r\nBeat you down, break your leg to hear you scream\r\nShit, fuck am I saying? It's my demons\r\nAin't not big a deal, this shit is not new to me\r\n(Hook)\r\nMy mom was taken now I'm feeling lonely\r\nNow there's no one to hold me when I'm falling\r\nI'm sorry I answered when the demons called me\r\nI never thought they would control me\r\n(X2)\r\n(Verse 2)\r\nI need to see a psychologist\r\nWhatever wrong I do, ain't got no apology\r\nInto the dark, most of my peers follow me\r\nBad influence, gotta die, gotta leave\r\nCold guy, this ain't what I wanna be\r\nMost of my friends, they don't even get me so they try\r\nLike, \"He's got this sort of disorder I'm\r\nnot sure it's schizoid or it's\r\nborderline, but he's got a distorted mind\r\nIf not, then tell me just where he gets all the rhymes\r\nI don't get it man, why does he bother writing?\r\nDoodle bullshit so to sleep 4 to 5\r\nJeez, why can't he just draw the line?\"\r\nDifferentiate an addiction from an interest, a mystique from a dipshit\r\nA rap god, a misfit\r\nKnow that he's fading from existence\r\nSlowly replaced\r\n\"Quit rap, you're schmoe in this lane\r\nFlow is insane?\r\nI'd rather listen to J. Cole and The Game\"\r\nCan't you see every single day that goes I'm in pain?\r\nWonder what I'll be when I'm grown up\r\nThese voices tell lies, \"Your sister was a known slut\r\nWhat you waiting for? Go and cut\r\nGo ahead man, sell your soul for this fame\r\nStop smiling, you're making a mistake\r\nPut the pen down and take a little break\r\nLook, I got a new game I wanna play\r\nLook in that cup, yay, a razor blade\r\nHey do what I say, I'll break your little face\r\nAin't no better way to save you from your brain\"\r\nFuck's sake, you're a snake, I'm gonna pray\r\nBut this whole shit, I can't take, I'm gonna break","download_count":201,"play_count":1,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":2,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-23","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5b4\/7da\/948\/thumb_88462_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":null,"status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}