{"id":258947,"created_at":"2022-04-20 00:02:50","updated_at":"2024-06-28 11:56:43","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2022-04-20 00:02:50","original_id":null,"artist_id":126929,"title":"MY DIARY heartbreak","slug":"my-diary-heartbreak","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"I can see it in your eyes that you're heartbroken\r\nYour last man ripped all of your scars open\r\nNow you're drinking and you're staring at the starshoping\r\nThat you'll never love again and this time you're not joking\r\nUsually soft spoken, but you had it up to here\r\nWondering how the hell you wasted the last couple of years\r\nOn somebody who never loved you enough\r\nYou were unprepared, lookin' for a love that just wasn't there\r\nNow your putting up a wall and it's not breakin\r\nRelashionships is somethin' you don't wanna part take in\r\nYour heart's aching, friends are askin you \"What's wrong\", you can not take it\r\nSo you're in your room and you're all faded\r\nThinkin' nobody would want you if you're not naked\r\nAnd that men are all the same, you should stop takin' chances\r\n'Cause no man knows what romance is\r\nYou're becoming numb and you're done giving passes\r\nThis war in my mind, I can't seem to end\r\nDoctor please help me, I just want friends\r\nGoing to a place only I'll ever know\r\nCut into my face, am I beautiful to you\r\nWhat am I doing? I'm only human\r\nWhat am I doing? I'm only human\r\nIt's like no matter what you try you can't get it right\r\nYou always attract the ones who lie and the jealous type\r\nAnd the ones who make you cry during every fight\r\nAnd sometimes make you wanna quit and just end your life\r\nHe sais your a hoe and even sais it twice\r\nHas you thinkin' you're the type of woman he could never wife\r\nLike you're not worthy of him and his empty eyes\r\nOnly wanting sex, 'cause his love can be incentivised\r\nNow you're having trust issues with every guy\r\n'Cause they remind you of him almost everytime\r\nSo now when it comes to love you don't even try\r\nYou don't let it grow, you just let it die\r\nBut honestly if you were at his side\r\nYou would be the saddest bride\r\nHe has so much baggage and he won't forget to pack his pride\r\nYou're always askin why and I know why\r\nYou attract that kind of guy more than half the time\r\nAnd it's because your mind is focused on the wrong things\r\nYou know what you don't want to see\r\nWhat focussing on what you want brings\r\nEvery single thought becomes an offspring\r\nYou don't gotta listen to your mind everytime, let your heart sing\r\nYou keep running, what the hell from?\r\nYou got so much love in your heart\r\nYou should try to give yourself some\r\nDon't hold yourself up to other people's standards\r\nYou should know that yours is the only one that matters\r\nThe pieces of you they don't need to be gathered\r\n'Cause you were never broken or shattered\r\nFocus on enjoying more laughter and all the rest after\r\nNo Photoshop needed, 'cause you're perfect as captured\r\nThis war in my mind, I can't seem to end\r\nDoctor please help me, I just want friends\r\nGoing to a place only I'll ever know\r\nCut into my face, am I beautiful to you?\r\nWhat am I doing? I'm only human\r\nWhat am I doing? I'm only human.","download_count":86,"play_count":4,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2024-06-28","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/625\/f31\/53a\/thumb_825770_300_300_0_0_crop.png","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}