{"id":252995,"created_at":"2022-02-17 16:26:54","updated_at":"2024-05-10 13:29:10","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2022-02-17 16:26:54","original_id":null,"artist_id":123777,"title":"Being Honest","slug":"being-honest-2","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"Honest \r\n\r\nIf we being honest \r\nDepressed people we really the strongest\r\nAlways dealing with pain \r\nThat seems to never go away \r\nend up losing our way \r\nBut we back at the end of the day after\r\nWe deal with the pain deal with \r\nOww please tell me tell me \r\nHow does it feel not to be broken \r\nTell me tell me \r\nHow does it feel to sleep peacefully at night\r\nTell me tell me \r\nHow does it feel Not having to fight with demons \r\nOww please tell me \r\nHow does it feel to not be in your feelings about everything \r\nHow does it feel not to be insecure about everything\r\nDo you know \r\nThat feeling when you\u2019re not necessarily sad, but you just feel really empty inside and just grateful to be live\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\nI double up on my pain \r\nThen like my ex\r\nI roll it up like sum weed and smoke it away \r\nYeah after I cried cried \r\nI don\u2019t wanna lie \r\n\r\nSeeing myself cry that shit just gives me strength \r\nBecause I feel like giving up and that something I don\u2019t do\r\nPain and memories \r\nAlways tryna take away my happiness \r\n\r\nI give my heart and guess what \r\nIt just gets torn apart and thrown at me back \r\nSometimes the people you run too should be the people you running away from \r\nFake people everywhere \r\nQuestions questions \r\nThat seems like the only thing I have \r\nheaven or hell \r\nI choose heaven I already feel like I\u2019m in hell \r\n\r\nI can\u2019t frown all day that\u2019s why I smile through the pain \r\nI sit down and watch while I deal with useless hate\r\nChoose to avoid it but at times it takes over my brain\r\nThe realist nigga but I\u2019m always surrounded by the fake \r\n\r\nQuestion do you know how it feels \r\nTo give it you all but it feels like u haven\u2019t even started \r\nInside of me the only thing you\u2019ll find is a broken heart \r\nAnd a bottle filled with emotions \r\nBecause I\u2019m a nigga tryna heal \r\nAnd my emotions I choose to bottle em in because when i let em out \r\nThe only thing they seem to bring \r\nis pain \r\nSeems like emotional pain is the only thing I truly know and feel\r\n\r\nAnd mentally I\u2019m always thinking the worst because emotionally I\u2019ve been through the worst","download_count":100,"play_count":4,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2024-05-10","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/620\/e5a\/b14\/thumb_803341_300_300_0_0_crop.png","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}