{"id":251351,"created_at":"2022-02-02 23:45:04","updated_at":"2024-05-20 10:36:14","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2022-02-02 23:45:04","original_id":null,"artist_id":48238,"title":"To The Girl I Loved The Most","slug":"to-the-girls-i-love-the-most","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":8956,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"To the girl I loved the most: \r\n\r\nWe were teens. Drunk in love. Innocent - though I had seen life more harshly than you did. You were mine. My favourite place to be. Home. \r\n\r\nI do admit that I messed up in the beginning. Testosterone was surging through my body and I couldn't control it. When the time eventually came and I could, I fell way deeper for you than I did with most. \r\n\r\nI saw us at eighty married with kids in our retirement home. You were holding my hand the way you always did. Though wrinkled and worn by time, we showed each other the same love we always did. \r\n\r\nI digress... \r\n\r\nI found someone who wanted to love me forever, instead I chose you.\u00a0I chose you over forever. What I felt was beyond emotional. It was a spiritual kind of love that one only feels once in their lifetime. \r\n\r\nI still chose you... \r\n\r\nI saw in you a soul I could cherish and pray for. You had poise. Ever smiling when given the chance. I'm glad I made you smile and laugh, especially smile. No, laugh! I mean smile. Yeah, smile. \r\n\r\nYou broke me... \r\n\r\nYou left my life when I needed your energy the most. I do not blame you. I was not who you fell in love with. I grew colder and quieter with time. I was always stuck in my head. \r\n\r\nI understand... \r\n\r\nI heard you have a man now. I hope he loves you way more than I did. I hope he showers you with kisses. I hope he eased your self-consciousness. I know I tried but failed dismally. \r\n\r\nYou're beautiful through and through... \r\n\r\nAs I pen this last letter for you, I am letting you go. You were my muse, my teacher but above all my beloved. \r\n\r\nI hope you love him. Treat him how I didn't allow you. Break down his walls and introduce him to the better him. You are good at that. \r\n\r\nThere won't be another like you. I'll stop trying to find you in other women. You were my drug \u2014 more addictive than love.\r\n\u20700l\u013a\r\nYou are love itself... \r\n\r\nI will forever cherish our time together. It grew me. I will learn to love myself the way I did you. \r\n\r\nLet me leave you before I make you cry. I've done that enough. Forget about me so that I remember you. I would rather carry the pain of our lost love than to see it break you down. I want you as happy as you were before me. \r\n\r\nWith that said... \r\n\r\n-Love, GXLDII","download_count":157,"play_count":17,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2024-05-20","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/61f\/afa\/254\/thumb_797123_300_300_0_0_crop.png","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}