{"id":203637,"created_at":"2021-02-14 00:54:47","updated_at":"2021-04-15 18:12:23","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2021-02-14 00:54:47","original_id":null,"artist_id":76498,"title":"Sthandwa Sami","slug":"sthandwa-sami-23","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"Verse\r\nThis right here started a while ago\r\nThe sex was none like sum that I had before\r\nI mean I been affectionate to all kind of hoes\r\nNo brain but the head is what seemed to mater the most\r\nBeen high for long that I\u2019m reluctant to fall\r\nLove and heartbreak, you\u2019d swear I said it all\r\nNo ear to listen to me when I had to talk\r\nIf you can\u2019t see reason then you missing the point\r\nEverything I speak about made who I am\r\nGuilty before trial reason I\u2019m teary in the stand\r\nAt times being me is difficult to do\r\nEvery day I deal with some shit that\u2019s really hard to prove\r\nI don\u2019t get why everybody throw the book at me\r\nIf it was just you and me, it would kill you to look at me\r\nMistreated by love, she was really abusing me\r\nThought she was winning, she didn\u2019t see she was losing me\r\nDrowning in sorrow while craving a drink\r\nSo many thoughts in my head yet it\u2019s hard to think\r\nDying alone with no one seeing you bleed\r\nWhen some comfort is all you need\r\nSo used to pain one can\u2019t tell I\u2019m suffering\r\nGet behind the mic and it\u2019s easy for my heart to bleed\r\nTalk about shit I normally wouldn\u2019t in person\r\nRather trust a stone than a man, it was the lesson\r\nWith all the challenges I overcame, you\u2019d call it luck\r\nI had older women teaching me how to fuck\r\nSo when the sex is good, don\u2019t misinterpret it for love\r\nI had a chick 3 years using me and I gave my heart\r\nFor a longest time I had no one to trust\r\nDon\u2019t believe in a lot but had faith on us\r\nMade a mistake and fell in love\r\nNow I\u2019m picking up the last piece of my broken heart\r\nYou had me confused feeling like a muse\r\nYou had me just to keep yourself amused\r\nWanted to add a chapter in your life, the page was full\r\nSeeing you doing things I never thought you\u2019ll do\r\nThe pregnancy she took out, I needed that\r\nThe blessing I was waiting for, she never conceded that\r\nDepriving me of a chance to be a dad\r\nEspecially after the sad miscourage that we had\r\nTears in the pillow every night when I go to bed\r\nNever sleep, that\u2019s why the eyes are always red,\r\nSad part is you turned down a hand in marriage\r\nAnd chose a nigger who had no respect for your parents\r\nThree years I was building her\r\nThe best off me I was giving her\r\nSleeping sick on the bed I thought she would care\r\nTurns out the girl of my dream wasn\u2019t sincere\r\nBecause of you I knew the joy of marriage\r\nIt\u2019s difficult to live new thoughts with old habits\r\nSame time when I thought I\u2019d quit\r\nFinding myself in the morning holding a drink\r\nPain can\u2019t swim, so I drown in the bottle\r\nThink I\u2019m concern about beauty how I\u2019m falling for models\r\nAll my life I been waiting for this moment\r\nFuture looking bright when everything else seemed to be hopeless\r\nI\u2019ve spent good nights with bad girls tryna find a balance\r\nWanting answers to questions that are better left unanswered\r\nAlways been angelic but they want me to be Satan\r\nNever second guess me, I\u2019ve always been certain\r\nTears o joy, how I wish for that\r\nTears o pain inside my heart man I live with that\r\nIf I could turn back the hands of time, I\u2019d do it in a sec\r\nLooking at our pictures haunted by the memories we shared","download_count":23,"play_count":0,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-15","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/602\/858\/553\/thumb_622853_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}