{"id":169647,"created_at":"2020-09-16 14:02:48","updated_at":"2021-04-20 04:51:58","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-09-16 14:02:48","original_id":null,"artist_id":20877,"title":"Suicidal Thought's","slug":"suicidal-thoughts","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"[KingCmitio beats! Nigga4real]\r\n\r\n[Intro]\r\nG! I wasn't bored when I wrote this shit \r\nhehe or was I? \r\nI'm just confused And this shit ain't new x2\r\n\r\n[Hook]\r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\n\r\n[Verse 1]\r\nI'm the nikkur with a premonition that don't really... seem to come thru\r\nLately I been losing faith, I ain't been to church been grinding cause I'm overdue\r\nWhen these nikkurs come across my verses, is mystery they need Scooby-Doo\r\nUnpredictable, shit I think I'm cool\r\nLately errbody feelin that way\r\nDoing things for clout\r\nThinking is cool when it ain't cool\r\nShit I wonder why they tryna live a life that's outta reach and they cannot face reality\r\nMan this generation is fucked up\r\nBlack minds are juss locked up\r\nOur sisters outhere dying nonstop\r\nAll we do is share videos like it's something cool\r\nLord is this how it 'pose to be?\r\nIs this all your plan that I don't see?\r\nOr my lines good as mockery?\r\nPardon me if I speak out of turn\r\nI'm just confused \r\nI don't mean to question you but lately I do\r\nIt hurts to see girls being abused\r\nIt hurts to see cops killing on the news huh!\r\nA part of me ain't feeling pitiful \r\nGot a lot in my mind ain't beautiful \r\nMaybe some will think that I'm a fool\r\nSuicidal thoughts be critical\r\nYeah suicidal thoughts, G!\r\n\r\n[Hook]\r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\n\r\n[Verse 2]\r\nIs it joy, happiness, sadness, hurt, anxiety, depression or pressure? \r\nWhat is it? I gots something inside me I cannot explain\r\nOr maybe it's nothing but I think is that shit that they call it 'numb'\r\nI j know I feel this urge, I gotta write something\r\nIt's 3 am so I pull my notepad, boutta tell a story\r\nThat's when them questions come flooding in my mind\r\nWhy am I still awake?\r\nWhy am I so depressed?\r\nWhy do I care if they listen or not, uh? \r\nWhen will this agonizing pain vanish?\r\nWhen will these nikkurs agree that I'm better?\r\nWhy do I got worst luck of love?\r\nNo, why do I even ask myself this, uh? \r\nAll I want is for these nikkurs to respect me\r\nAll I want is for the media to recognise me\r\nAs a low-key with a mind that extricate ya\r\nBut I get it, it ain't that easy\r\nI gotta work hard, perfect the craft nikkur\r\nThou I know my bars are illest\r\nShit ain't gotta be cocky in this lifetime\r\nBut if that shit big then fuck it, it is what it is\r\nThere ain't no heaven and if you living in hell, that's the only shit that you'll ever know.\r\nWhen life shoots up then down then up then down, always gotta keep ya head up\r\nStay woke even at night, nikkur! \r\n\r\n[Hook]\r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nDamn! I been I been having suicidal thoughts \r\nI'm juss confused\r\nLately I feel like I could disappear \r\nAnd this shit ain't new\r\nLast time I thought it was just a bad year\r\n\r\n... The End...","download_count":58,"play_count":2,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-20","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5f6\/1fe\/70a\/thumb_519407_300_300_0_0_crop.png","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}