{"id":164306,"created_at":"2020-08-19 12:37:38","updated_at":"2021-04-10 14:44:53","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-08-19 12:37:38","original_id":null,"artist_id":52966,"title":"Heaven Or Hell Cold","slug":"heaven-or-hell-cold","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"one of the things that I learned is that everyone is different, everyone has their own energy everyone is in their own frequency, so I learnt to be sensitive about things specially about mental health, its mental health not mental sickness...\r\n\r\nIt was 2011 when I met most people that I know now\r\nThe time before that one, I was a kid lost in the wrong aisle\r\nI remember always being \u2018\u2019the new kid\u2019\u2019 in the school ground,\r\nTough mathafaka stood my ground when I got bullied up.\r\nOnly had my sister so I had to Bro\u2019(brawl) two times\r\nGrew up way too early so somethings Im still catching up\r\nI aint had no luck, I aint had no bus for pick up\r\nI aint had not lunch, sleep in class when it was break time\r\n\r\n\u2018\u2019How you raise the kid is how you want \u2018em when they grow up\u2019\u2019\r\nI aint spilling tea on fam but that shit it haunts me\u2019\r\nHow they raised the kid is not exactly what you see now\r\nThank God for the music, only way I cloud be honest.\r\nPatient with myself, it was the greatest of my tactics\r\nNever asked for help, even though I knew my blood thick\r\nAlways been a lone wolf I learnt to tell whos barking\r\nMowgli in the jungle, now Im leading all the packs in\r\n\r\nIt was raining it was pouring \r\nI would never settle less\r\nOh you had it tough when growing up?\r\nI know niggas still in that\r\nMan it was cold and this shit is still cold\r\nThat\u2019s why Im on the streets tryna get this doug\u2019\r\nIm tryna buy a fleece tryna keep my fam warm\r\nAlways find me in the street and I lean by the pole\r\n\r\nRIP my siblings, I count too many lost now,\r\nIm becoming what an idle is Im not a loner\r\nIm becoming what an idol is Im not alone now\r\nIronic. \r\nHow I lost them then became a compound,\r\nI am him and her and so is God on my spotlight.\r\nStarted from the bottom but it felt like we\u2019re descending .\r\nPTSD some friends thought I was going crazy\r\nMental health insensitive killing our black families\r\nNobody really cares unless you pick the rope to end it.\r\nEven life can be studied so I started cramming breathing \r\nFelt a squel inside my chest started smoking anyways\r\nYou can only learn to live with pain you cant take it away\r\nThey never know this part of my life coz I always turn the page\r\nThis is copying mechanisms coz Im always filled with rage\u2019\r\nI cant tell you whats coming next coz Im always raping with my feelings\r\nGirl I cant guarantee you love I never knew, what\u2019s happiness?\r\nIm steady grindin Im hustler I wasn\u2019t given anything","download_count":123,"play_count":15,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-10","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5f3\/d00\/ab1\/thumb_495943_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}