{"id":150909,"created_at":"2020-07-01 07:21:55","updated_at":"2021-04-20 13:30:38","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-07-01 07:21:55","original_id":null,"artist_id":31789,"title":"TBH Freestyle.","slug":"tbh-freestyle","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"I won't bother with an intro, I'll just dive right in\/\r\nI mean, as you can hear, I've already started rhyming\/\r\nRight? Okay, so why am I doing this freestyle?\/\r\nTo be honest, I'm not sure I guess I'll figure it out as I rhyme\/\/\r\n\r\nDo forgive me for not recording this properly and getting it mastered\/\r\n_I would've preferred to this thing in the booth, to be honest\/\r\n-But I can't afford studio time, -I have no access to equipment\/\r\n-So, here I am, starved for choice, -and just_ going with it\/\/\r\n\r\n-I felt compelled to tell you guys a little bit about myself\/\r\n-and where I find myself in life. And no! It's not a cry for help!\/\r\n-I just feel like... I'm tired of hiding from reality\/\r\nI feel like, the way we live might drive us to insanity\/\/\r\n\r\nBehind me is a shack, a space that 6 of us live in\/\r\nThere's 2 beds and 1 bedroom, the other bed is in the kitchen\/\r\n3 of the 6 are children, 2 of them sleep in the living room\/\r\n-I sleep in the kitchen with the eldest, my bro and his wife in the bedroom\/\/\r\n\r\n-I'm at the back right now, cos the rest of the house is always packed and-\/\r\n-there's no such thing as alone time cos there's always a distraction\/\r\n-Actually, I won't be surprised if this recording is like\/\r\nMy 3rd or 4th attempt because my nephew keeps walking by\/\/\r\n\r\n-He likes to stalk me, he's a cute kid and he loves me to death\/\r\nI'm pretty sure that if he had to for me he'd spare his last breath\/\r\nHe grew up around these parts, I know he's not afraid to die\/\r\nHe's much braver than I am, he has no choice that's just his life\/\/\r\n\r\n-You see, iKhayelitsha_ is no place for the weak\/\r\nI'm sure some laaitie's Air Force 1s are being unlaced as we speak\/\r\n-and he likely won't make it out alive, no one is ever too young to die\/\r\n-If it's your time then it's your time, even the little boys don't cry\/\/\r\n\r\nBut I, on the other hand, well-I'm brand new to this environment\/\r\nMy brother gets annoyed whenever I claim I'm not violent\/\r\n-I don't like to fight, I'm all about peace and joy and love\/\r\nI grew up around \"wypipo\" and safety and stuff\/\/ you know?\r\n\r\nAnd I was set too, with a degree, a decent job\/\r\nmy own place with a charming view, an indoor bathroom, brick walls\/\r\n-but more importantly to me I had full access to making music\/\r\n-And at that point I had no reason to believe that I'd ever lose it\/\/\r\n\r\n-That's my first love man, nothing on earth excites me more\/\r\nThe feeling I get when I lace a dope verse, that shit is what I'D die for\/\r\n-And go figure the last music related thing I did was choke on stage\/\r\n-I guess I should've known then, that life was not gonna go my way\/\/\r\n\r\n-And it didn't I lost my job and left the music cos I was forced to\/\r\nfast forward my brother invites me to live with him and change my fortune\/\r\nFor four months after that I remained unemployed until-\/\r\nI got a job as a construction worker and then... Coronavirus! Damn... \r\n\r\nA month later, here I am, still giving rap a go\/\r\n-Trying to make connex with local artists and mind you I'm flat broke\/\r\n-So I'm in their DMs like a weirdo, on some \"hey, can we be buddies\/\r\n-I'm new to the city, -I'm a dope rapper, click this link, please love me\"\/\/\r\n\r\nOkay I don't say the last part, -I might as well though cos I'm desperate\/\r\nThere isn't much I wouldn't do to be back in the stu again making records\/\r\nNow I'll say this again, I'm not here moaning and crying for sympathy... \/\r\nOr handouts or anything like that but, quite simply\/\/\r\n\r\n_I want to share my story because I know I'm not alone\/\r\n-but the way we live has way too many of us being too afraid to show it\/\r\n-it's like, everyone is so obsessed with portraying the best version of themselves\/\r\n-to the point they'd rather suffer in silence, in their own personal hell\/\/\r\n\r\nWe're a generation of depressed youth who just wanna be like everyone else\/\r\n-but ironically, everyone else's life is fucked up as well\/\r\nMany of us are deep in debt and broke and struggling to keep it together\/\r\n-though it appears to be quite the contrary we seem to be better than ever\/\/\r\n\r\n-No, I'm not suggesting we should wallow in a collective pit of depression\/\r\n-By all means post your wins, I heart the hustle, share your success\/I mean- \r\nSome of us HAVE to make it, we can't ALL live like peasants\/\r\n-I'm just saying, it's hard enough without the unnecessary pressures\/\r\n\r\n-So, I want to share my story so that the next person living like me\/\r\nCan know there's no reason to give it all up, and end your life, please!?\/\r\n-If_ just one person hears this, who feels like life is getting worse\/\r\n-who feels like a burden or even cursed, who's a bottle of pills from a hearse\/\/\r\n\r\n-If, just one person, can turn and walk away from the ledge\/\r\nBecause they know they're not alone! Then I'll be happy, I did my best\/\r\n-This life isn't easy is it? But it's okay not to be okay\/\r\nWhat's not okay, is for us to feel like we're alone on the same page\/\/\r\n\r\nYou don't need to be on fleek on weekends in VIP popping bottles\/\r\nYou don't have to have a Chanel handbag and matching red bottoms\/\r\nCongratulations on your beamer, but there's no shame if you take the taxi\/\r\nYour new house inspires me, yes! But I CAN live in a shack and be happy\/\r\n\r\nI'm not preaching complacency, I'm trying to inspire love of self\/\r\n-Feel free to celebrate your regular life, for the good of your own health\/\r\n-I'd appreciate a like and a share, but please don't do it just for me\/\r\nDo it because you believe it can reach an ear some place one needs to be reached\/\/\r\n\r\nPeace and love! El Gee!\r\n\r\nThank you for listening...","download_count":127,"play_count":40,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-20","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5ef\/c1c\/f15\/thumb_454244_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}