{"id":148356,"created_at":"2020-06-23 00:35:10","updated_at":"2021-04-20 20:46:39","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-06-23 00:35:10","original_id":null,"artist_id":6786,"title":"Centia","slug":"centia","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"You owe me over hundred million kisses \r\nCan't forget them ass whopping too\r\nI find myself screaming I love you \r\nWith hopes that you'd say it too\r\nI heard stories wish they all true\r\nMy daughter better look like you\r\nPictures the only thing I have of you \r\nI need your love, God that's a clue\r\nWas told you an angel in disguise\r\nFunny cause you smile through the skies\r\nWishing you could see the pain in my eyes\r\nI need your love I'm tired of all these lies\r\nGrandma said life should be perfected \r\nWithout you, I always feel neglected\r\nI pray your grave is still respected \r\nI haven't seen it but we still connected \r\nIn my dreams I always see your face\r\nGirl you my star and my happy place\r\nI lost a star now I'm out on space\r\nI guess your love would be a better pace\r\nYour 1st born just had a son\r\nYou a grandma now I hope you proud\r\nI wish I knew life with you around \r\nMa I'm wishing you could make a sound\r\nHere I am feeling suicidal \r\nThe soul is shattered and you my revival\r\nI find it hard just to read the bible.\r\nGod's plan left me for survival \r\nIt's lie I'm not doing well\r\nCouldn't even bid you farewell\r\nNever got to show my appreciation\r\nAll this just don't sit me well\r\napologize for all the wrongs I did \r\nNever had guidance you noticed it\r\nMy soul is empty you noticed it\r\nLosing my sanity yeah you noticed it\r\nI pray my kids don't live the same life\r\nHope I don't die in plain sight\r\nI'd be lying if I said I'm living right \r\nI always send my love in every night \r\nYour pictures to me define happiness \r\nMy bold self hides loneliness \r\nLiving life with just no regrets \r\nI mean look at me, I'm such a mess\r\nMa I see you in all my dreams\r\nI hide the hard part that's how it seems\r\nMy ocean of pain come in different streams \r\nFlowing tears when I think of you \r\nI don't know how to be a parent \r\nI never had one that's so unpleasant\r\nI had me I'm independent\r\nHaving you would be the greatest present \r\nYour ex boy chose to go away\r\nI hope I get meet you one day \r\nYour soul is with me in every way\r\nRest in peace is just all I'll say","download_count":96,"play_count":10,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-20","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5ef\/132\/198\/thumb_446417_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}