{"id":143626,"created_at":"2020-06-06 11:10:26","updated_at":"2021-04-15 22:58:33","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-06-06 11:10:26","original_id":null,"artist_id":3943,"title":"07. Reflecting","slug":"07-reflecting","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"*Verse1*\r\nCan\u2019t run away now can you, thoughts fill my mind all, I can do is wait for the day that I meet you live my life to a point of impressing you. Who will I argue with who will I chill in the room and get to talk to all of your siblings are distant I have hard time speaking to your sisters. Momma is all alone if we leave her nobody to hug do you miss her. she told me that you knew when you kissed her, you were gonna leave on and you spoke to my sister. Memories of us paint a picture of how we got along washing dishes in the kitchen, how I stole your pieces of chicken that jam drink we made i think the flavor was peaches. You broke the microwave before leaving heating up your food before stepping up to heaven wishing before death I share the same premonitions get to say goodbye to people that I\u2019ve lived with, people that I value who were there at my lowest friends make family I don\u2019t know if you know this family is everything my hope is they notice the death of my father got me looking at shit different. Really if you think of it they love you to your face and when you leave mirage fades out and you start having doubts cause the bond falls out and pride showed up I mean. People put a price on the life I live. People think I\u2019m nice but inside I bleed. People turn to I because I seem in peace but what people think is far from real. But all of this noise I hear got me stuck fear and to be sincere I got nothing here but a life I fear might disappear so I\u2019m trynna dust the mirror just to see more clear what happens behind me in these different era where people play keys for us to dance with the devil I feel I\u2019ve lived long enough to dig my grave with no shovel but looking at my mom I drag myself through the gravel. Thoughts of suicide in my mind have levels, me killing myself put the blame on D\u2019Evils inevitable shit fear is my only god, if fear is my only god what do I fear in God, oh GOD I miss my daddy a lot and crazy how emotions broke the lock it ain\u2019t lust its love but it just don\u2019t last till death do us apart I\u2019m always siding mom. So Dad I hope you know this death I hope you notice life is a lonely lotus these people are mostly bogus been rowing this boat for long I\u2019m losing focus if money is all there is to this world what is my purpose. People swallowing purple pills to please pain I was never with that shit I still ain\u2019t. the weapon formed against me might just prevail because I still hold the shield you gave me while it fades. I walk in the shadow darkness a torch in my pocket but my batteries are dead and I know that. My life is book that you all read not that you know that I only speak to those who are hot heads. Why do people wanna be perfect, why do I think death is a pervert, why do I look at I as a person to hate on the other just to smile is when I\u2019m hurting, I really need to speak to a person.\r\n*Verse 2*\r\nCrazy how they tell me not to think too much about it, like they know how I\u2019ve been feeling understand how I\u2019ve been vibing tame this vein inside me my pain I cannot hide it so I\u2019m just gonna write it down, hope one day you will find it. I\u2019ll feed off all this energy with the massacres inside of me switch the negatives to the positives and you can just be proud of me. (Just be X2), Just be proud of me X2 I\u2019m trying you\u2019ll see.","download_count":104,"play_count":0,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-15","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5ed\/b5d\/65e\/thumb_431250_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}