{"id":137683,"created_at":"2020-05-16 14:02:33","updated_at":"2021-04-19 10:17:29","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-05-16 14:02:33","original_id":null,"artist_id":71659,"title":"5. R.I.P","slug":"5-rip","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"Momma Im crying out for help\r\nThe pain of losing you just got me thinking to myself\r\nCould I ever love somebody else\r\nWhen I cant even love myself\r\nI mean I... ah\r\nI just know what to do\r\nI'm so danm lost without uu \r\nI wish you could make it through \r\nBut I know\r\nThat's not the way things go\r\nSo I'll just go with the flow \r\nI'll keep in touch with your soul\r\nI really hope that you hear me\r\nI hope and pray you forgive me \r\nFor all the things I said\r\nI never thought you'd be dead\r\nNow I'm tryna reach out to you\r\nHoping the message goes through \r\nDrowning myself with tears and bottles getting rid of these blues\r\nBut they just dont go away\r\nI think bout you every day \r\nI close my eyes and I pray \r\nI pray to God you're okay \r\nWas dreaming bout u one day \r\nI heard you call out my name\r\nYou were tryna beg me to stay\r\nBut I kept on walking away \r\nNow I cant remember your face\r\nI cant Remember your eyes\r\nI cant remember your voice\r\nAin't heard you talk in a while\r\nWhen I think about you I smile \r\nWhen I think about you I cry \r\nDon't worry bout me I'm fine \r\nJust wish we had some more time\r\nMomma I wrote you a letter\r\nI asked the lord to deliver .. it.\r\nTo you and if he does I promised I would do better\r\nI sit alone in the rain \r\nThe pain done turn to a flame \r\nGod would you open the gates \r\nMom I got something to say !\r\n\r\nI wanna tell u I love you \r\nI wanna give you a hug \r\nI wanna tell you I miss you \r\nand squeeze you tight in my arms \r\nMom I just wanted to thank you \r\nThank you for giving me love\r\nThank you for showing me the best parts of this life that I'm on\r\nBut I dont get why you left me\r\nLike why you left me so early?\r\nMomma my heart is so empty\r\nAnd living life is burdon \r\nYou forced my sister to raise me\r\nI mean she did a good job\r\nBut i hate the way I feel lately \r\nMomma I just need a hug\r\n\r\nMomma Im crying out for help\r\nThe pain of losing you just got me thinking to myself\r\nCould I ever love somebody else\r\nWhen I cant even ....\r\nLost for words \r\nI'm tryna build myself up in this crazy world\r\nBut momma I need you I don't need no one else\r\nI remember when you told me I only need myself \r\nNow I'm 20 years old \r\nI've seen a lot outta life mom this world is so cold\r\nBut fuck it what do I know?\r\nI'll just keep performing my songs to give these people a show\r\nBut I hate the fact that I cant remember you\r\nAnd I'm so scared that you cant remember me too\r\nJust wanna get this wait up off my chest\r\nI got a good family and friends really momma I'm blessed \r\n\r\nI got these people who love me.\r\nI got my sister Thembelihle she'd do anything for me\r\nI got my brothers who got me\r\nI got Motsekii and Serame\r\nI got Karabo Sibusiso\r\nGot Moeletsi and Mzwakhe\r\nGot people close to my heart\r\nThose who were there from the start\r\nGot Busisiwe Nyakallo Jodo that girl is a star\r\nGot people rooting for me \r\nBoitumelo and Nandi\r\nThey so supportive mom they want me to be the best I could be\r\n\r\nMom I'm crying for help\r\nBut I'm grateful that I got these friends who are helping me through hell\r\nAnd though I'll never understand..\r\nWhy you left me but momma I promise you left me in good hands \r\nMy people taking care of me\r\nMy people climbing up the the stairs with me\r\nSo dont you worry bout me please\r\nMomma you can close your eyes and rest in peace","download_count":147,"play_count":17,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-17","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5eb\/fd6\/524\/thumb_412198_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}