{"id":42012,"created_at":"2018-11-02 13:38:24","updated_at":"2021-04-19 05:54:03","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2018-11-02 13:38:24","original_id":null,"artist_id":3391,"title":"01. Black child","slug":"01-black-child","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"Memories from November.\r\n\r\nDreadynerdy-Black Child\r\n \r\nBlack child..Black child goes through a lot\u2026 But we still surviving\r\nI\u2019m really lost in myself \r\nI\u2019m at the library searching for a book \r\nThat can explain myself,\r\nBut these books don\u2019t feel how I felt \r\nI don\u2019t know if it\u2019s me verse me\r\nor me verses them \u2018coz me verses me wouldn\u2019t kill myself\r\nBut then me aint me no more\r\nI don\u2019t feel myself\r\nConfusion lead to permanent conclusions\r\nSo that means me verses me would probably kill myself \r\nI\u2019m no longer at war I\u2019m at peace \r\nWith a stranger that I probably call myself\r\nTears raining from my eyes \r\nThe only question asked \r\nAre you okay?\r\nAs I\u2019m quick to reply \r\nI\u2019m fine I\u2019m doing better \r\nHow was your day? \r\n\r\nDo you care for yourself?\r\nA question that I hardly ask myself \r\nDo you blame me?\r\nIs it my fault?\r\nIs it my fault that I wasn\u2019t raised like you?\r\nThese are memories from November \r\nWhich I probably don\u2019t want to remember \r\nAnd this aint even a poem \r\nThis is how I really feel\r\nI feel like my skin is getting torn up\r\nI feel like everything that made me happy before \r\nDon\u2019t rush the same adrenalin no more\r\nAnd if beauty be the brain \r\nThen knowledge be the love \r\nThe love that tortures you \r\nFrom all the knowledge that you store in in your mind\r\nPain, love, pain, love, pain, love, pain, love, love, pain death, life, death\r\nSmile. laughter. A beautiful smile only appears on a sad face \r\nA beautiful smile tells a story\r\nA beautiful smile hides sorrow\r\nA beautiful smile that\u2019s what we are \r\nBlack child\r\nBlack child goes through a lot \r\nBut we still surviving","download_count":265,"play_count":14,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":1,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-19","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5bd\/c37\/0bd\/thumb_132802_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":null,"status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}